Wishing My Life Away

It’s already going on 10 o’clock TT and I’m just now getting around to this. I’ve had my cough medicine and Cuz has put out my sleeping capsule. I’m on my second full 16 ozzies of water for the day plus I had 8 ozzies when Cuz helped me with my morning meds.

Sleeping with the door open was much better. Not long after I’d gone to bed, I knocked the large water bottle Cuz had brought me and it went over the side of the bed next to the wall. My CIL was up so I called to him and he brought me another bottle of water — this time a small one. Today, he told me he thought I’d allen out of bed. It would be quite a feat to roll out over my arm pillow. 🙂

I thought I’d get today off but the social worker called and wanted to stop by. I enjoy his visits (now two) so I told him to come on. He’s very understanding, of course, and called time out to have me relax and breathe for as long as I needed. He was quiet, as well.

real-time-maxxMy Real Time MAXX came. My CIL had brought it in and Cuz got it and opened it. He was looking for it later and I told him what happened. I put some on the “band” that hurts where I could reach it and it helped but it’s worn off. I need a better way to get it off my hands than washing it off with a wet washcloth.

Cuz finally got her project done, mostly. My CIL was helping her and her construction partner went out and supervised for several hours. She wants to get everything finished up tomorrow.

I’ve had some bad spells today. They’ll come more and more often, I know. At least I have the details for my memorial mostly taken care of. I emailed the life sketch and the obituary to the proper people and lined up the minister to do the homily.

The satellite actually behaved and let me publish with no problem. We’ll see how it goes tonight.

My retired nurse friend from the hospital private messaged me as did merm. They are both concerned about my loss of appetite. She mentioned a synthetic drug that’s supposed to take care of the problem but it’s expensive and it might not play well with my pain meds. I’ve emailed my used-to-be PCP and asked him but, of course, he isn’t in the office tonight. The hospice nurse isn’t due back until Tuesday (The Auspicious Day). The aide will come and give me a bath tomorrow afternoon. I’ll opt for a chair bath again.

I don’t think I’m going to get as much water down me as I need to. I need another 16 ozzies and it ain’t gonna happen. I should also go to bed soon. It’s almost 75 so there’s no way I’ll need Mother’s little comforter until it cools off toward morning. It’s been stuffy so I turned the fan on the purifier up and pointed it at me for a while. I wish I’d get better but I know that isn’t going to happen.

Company will be here tomorrow, DS1 and his on Friday and the piano technician and his wife Sabbath afternoon. Now, I’m praying for strength. Good night and all blessings!

5 Responses to Wishing My Life Away

  1. merry November 3, 2016 at 11:00 pm #

    Tommie…
    Praying healing mercies for comfort care for you…

  2. Paul from UR November 3, 2016 at 11:55 pm #

    Sorry things have been rough. Saw that Cuz posted for you on UR earlier this evening and got concerned. Prayers.

  3. Peach November 4, 2016 at 1:59 am #

    I wish you would get better too Tommie, remember how we were all going to get together when we were raw and 100 years old, don’t think any of us are going to make that.

    I am so glad you have such wonderful cuz’s to look after you, there are not many out there that would do that.

    Think of you often.

  4. Heidi November 4, 2016 at 9:10 am #

    Tommie, keeping you in prayer, feel better 😀

  5. Heidi November 6, 2016 at 9:27 am #

    Tommie, keeping you in prayer. The entire UR family is praying for you,
    And your care givers.

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