Breathless

You could have cut the air with a knife when I went out to feed the Catz this evening. Talk about humid! There had been a lot of thunder earlier and Weatherbug chirped a storm warning but I don’t know that it rained a whole lot. I don’t know if it rained just a little.

I’d barely gotten started on my blueberries when DD called. I told her I’d call her back when I finished my meal but it would take a while. It takes a long time for me to get anything ready and then I have to choke it down. There are times out for coughing, too. Life used to be fun.

When I got to a place where I could call her, it was ‘way up in the afternoon. She said her SO has bought a keyboard and is teaching himself to play. She is impressed with his progress. Maybe it will inspire her to get back into it. We talked (with breaks for me to cough and catch my breath) for almost an hour and a half.

We talked about the possibility of DS1 and DS2 coming to see me but they are so involved in their own lives, maybe I don’t figure into them any more. They got so used to my going to see them rather than them coming up here, maybe it doesn’t occur to them I’d like to see them. DD is planning a trip home the last of next month so maybe they’ll come to see her and I’ll get to see them then. Maybe maybe maybe.

Maybe DS1 will bring me the phone he promised to some time back. I really need one that will work with my air purifier. There are a lot of things I can’t do without one. If he needs help with gas, I can PayPal him some money.

My nurse friend sent me a message on Facebook that she has a prior obligation on Tuesday so she’ll come tomorrow to shoot me. Just so I get shot. Maybe that will perk me up. Maybe.

Cuz called and told me her sister will be here tomorrow to take me for rehab. I’m to call and let her know if I’m not up to going. I feel like this might be my last best chance to feel even somewhat human again. Right now, I’m not up to going anywhere but to bed but that’s now. MAYBE I’ll feel better tomorrow. Maybe.

And now back after a break to breathe…what’s happening in the world of politics is truly regrettable — on both sides. Trump is being likened to Putin and he HAS expressed admiration for the the President of the Russian Federation. Then, on the DNC side, it’s the email scandal. Seems there’s been an inordinate amount of attention being paid to electronic mail. Some sources say the leak came about to help Trump. Well, it certainly isn’t hurting him.

Quite a few of my Facebook friends are incensed that Hillary is “hiring” Debbie Wasserman Schultz as honorary chair of her campaign. Now, if I understand honorary, it isn’t a paid position so there’s no hiring to it. I can understand their indignation, though. I don’t think it was a wise move but that’s me. Bernie hasn’t been without his foibles. They just haven’t been seized upon the way Hillary’s and Trump’s have been. Maybe Bernie will be the nominee, after all, and we can have the country’s oldest president at his inauguration. Of course, any of them would be the oldest so it’s no novelty this season.

Cough break. Well, whatever I did night before last was something I didn’t do last night. I spent much of my time in bed coughing. I get so tired of it. Life isn’t fun any more. There’s some reason I’m still around. I don’t know what it is. I wish God would share it with me. I’m what I never wanted to be — a burden. And don’t try to tell me otherwise.

6 Responses to Breathless

  1. Lila July 25, 2016 at 7:02 am #

    Tommie, those of us who are family cannot imagine life without you. Sorry life has become so difficult for you. We’d make it better if we could!

    • Tommie July 25, 2016 at 9:41 am #

      I know you would and I wish you could.

  2. Alice Fontana July 25, 2016 at 9:25 am #

    Its good you don’t live on this side of the country Tommie. Our air is so full of smoke from the fires in Southern California. Better today than yesterday tho. I’m so sorry it wasn’t a good day/night for you.
    Sometimes our children don’t realize how much we want (NEED) to see them. A conversation on the phone just isn’t the same. Thank God your daughter understands. I’ll include that issue in my prayers for you today. Hopefully, you’ll have the “where with all” to get to your rehab today and even enjoy the adventure a little. Hang in there, my Sister in Christ. As you said, He continues to have purpose for you.

    • Tommie July 25, 2016 at 9:54 am #

      Thank you, Alice. No, I wouldn’t need to be inhaling smoke. I’m sorry you’re having to deal with it. There’s nothing for me to do but hang in there. And try to breathe.

  3. Les July 29, 2016 at 8:27 am #

    Tommie, maybe your coughing isn’t caused by something you didn’t do but something you did do…like perhaps it’s something you ate yesterday but hadn’t the previous days. Praying you can figure it out and get some rest

    • Tommie July 29, 2016 at 9:49 am #

      Thanks, Les, but my coughing is ever present. It’s just worse sometimes than others for no apparent reason.

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