I slept better last night with the diffuser going. The first time my need for the bathroom woke me, I thought I wasn’t going to be able to get my eyes un-shut.
When I got up this morning, I had more energy. I still didn’t feel like hunting bears with a switch but I got some things done that I’d needed to do for weeks.
DD called this afternoon and we visited for a little more than half an hour before she had to hang up. While we were talking, I told her I’ve begun to realize how stressed I was by Twinkle. A large portion of my days was spent checking on her, whether she had fresh food, and if she needed anything. It’s been like that for well over a year. I feel like a weight has lifted. If she could have been in good health, it would have been a joy to have her around indefinitely.
Since she wasn’t, my existence was just that—an existence. Hers wasn’t even as exciting as mine. She never got to leave the house unless it was to go to the vet.
I called DS1 this evening. He’s feeling a bit anxious. That’s understandable. He has to be at the hospital at 6:30 tomorrow morning. Of course, he has to be fasting with nothing to drink. I told him I’ll be praying for him if I wake that early. However, by the time he actually gets to the OR it will be much later.
The diffuser is going in my bedroom. There’s a tiny “chute” on the side of the front end that is where I’m supposed to put the drops of essential oil. It’s very hard to get them in without wasting some so I’ve posted a question on Amazon. Last night, I watched a couple of videos on youtube but they weren’t any help. The people were putting the oils directly into the water which is probably why their diffusers aren’t lasting long. I tried that before I went to bed but the oils just floated and got poured off this morning.
The oils haven’t taken my cough away but the congestion isn’t as tight as it was. At least I’m not listening to myself breathe.
Amazon sent a shipment notice about the little memorial. It will be here tomorrow. According to the dimensions, it’s tiny but so is the grave.